Accepting Autism

In some ways I'm getting used to autism but I can't get too used to it or I won't get better. I have to strike a balance between the need to accept myself the way I am and the need to not accept myself the way I am, so I can keep fighting to improve. Not easy to find that middle spot.

Progress

I realized something interesting. Gradually my symptoms have been getting less intense. Not that I’m even remotely close to normal, but I’m a lot closer than I used to be. It happened so naturally I barely noticed, but it is true nonetheless. Very nice to recognize that it can happen. Often in the past I felt like nothing would improve and I would stay in the same situation forever. 

Now I can say that I have a greater attention span by miles than before. Doing homework, piano practice, and going to school helped loads. I like playing more too. I have fun on wii and the iPad games. I enjoy improving my skills. In the beginning I stank. I see that I follow instructions better. My body listens better to my brain. The exercising I do helped here. I also have noticed that I stim less. I still stim plenty, but less. Hand flapping is way down.

I don’t know if it is because I am more mature or because I have worked hard on getting better, or both, but this gives me real encouragement to keep pressing on.